While I have tried to tell the truth about certain events. I should be noted a lot of information is directly from what a psychopath has said or done. Psychopaths have no concept of the truth and live in their own fantasy world.

Cat and Mouse

The psychopath was playing with me the same way a cat plays with a mouse.
The only thing that saved my life was that he was caught murdering
 someone else!#?!!

Mad Doctors

Mad Doctors release a dangerous patient from Porirua Hospital to teach the Government a lesson..

I considered him a friend…….
The Government considered him one of the most dangerous people in the country…..
Sadly I didn’t find out until it was too late…..
Oh well that’s my life screwed……..or was it the new beginning I needed?

Suicide

Someone I knew had murdered a friend of friend.

He was then been shot by police.

I felt like crap.

So I drove to the seaside.

I had every intension to walk into the sea and not come back.

Then I remembered I would be letting down the people that were helping and trusting me.

 

The Prey

When you are the prey of Criminal.

The Police start asking stupid question.

Clearly, they think your nuts they will not listen your weird story.

Several months later he attacks again.

You really worry about your survival.

Latter you find there are many people who feel that way.

The police had arrested him over and over and realised him.

Several day later two were dead.

At last the police did the right thing.

Why do the wait to have bodies to play with.

Before they do anything useful.

Criminal rights against the right of their Prey.

I’m still don’t know how I’m alive.

 

Explain

Explain the unexplainable .
Once I was in a position where if I had done the right thing.
I would have been safe.
One person would not have been murdered.
One person would not have been shot by police.
And my country would not have gone into shock.

Many years later I still cannot work out what the right thing could be.

 I tried the Police.

Maybe in looking for the right thing I did the wrong thing.
Pushed events in a direction they would not have gone.
But the only person who knows is dead.
Even if he were alive he would not tell.

That's Life and death.

The Moment

Ian would often ask me to do him favors.
I later learned this is a way psychopaths groom people to become their partners in crime.
Ian sat down across the table and asked how would I build a car bomb?
Thinking he was joking I replied put a spark plug in the fuel tank.
Ian became adjugated and excited and said exactly how would that work?
There was something in the way he said it, I knew he wanted to kill someone, no he wanted to kill a lot of people.
I stood up and I said, “No way!” that was my death sentence.
The following week saw Ian on my case every chance he could.
Ian made claims of how he was in prison and he had threatened the warden of the prison that saw him transferred to Lake Alice Hospital.
This was supposed to scare me but then I had never heard of Lake Alice.
When Ian Sits opposite me and Holding up his Watch, Gold Face with Brown Leather Strap he starts to swing it back and forth. Then Blackness the following time is a jumble until I awake in a secure ward in hospital
 I could not even remember my own name.

At Risk

If a psychopathic murder asks you for help in building a car bomb what is at risk?

At risk are the lives of those who he plans to attack.
At risk is your life.
At risk are the wellbeing of those you care about.
At risk is a jail term for you.

At risk is the life of the psychopath for you may have to take it to stop him!!

So what’s your next move?

DO YOU REALLY?

You don't want to know,
Even if you think you do,
You don't.

I do know,
I wish I did not,
But I do.

I have looked into the Eyes of Death,
I wish I had not,
I have known what it feels that I could be next.

The Eyes moved on and choose another,
Sometimes I wish they had not.

I do know,
I wish I did not,
But I do.

You don't want to know,
Even if you think you do,

You don't.

After

I foget the wrong things I remember the wrong things.

I will change when I get help.

THE JOY OF BEING WRONG

When you thought, the world would end.
Feeling there was no hope.
When all you could hope for was a fast death.
Recovery was not an option.
You were wrong very wrong.
Such joy others will never understand.
You will never be able to put it into Words.
The freedom that comes from being wrong.
In a world where being right is so Important.
 How can being wrong feel so great.

Forgiveness

When I forgave them.
My life became so much simpler.

Mybe again?

 

 

 

 

 

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